Melancholia

  Meeting your ethereal gaze I ponder, Those beads encompass all that is blue.  Lost in chasms of depths untold, A flicker of passion, letting miles unfold of rue. My only moon in constellations of stars, We come from horizons of dusks afar, You screamed out that night, but I did not hark Now I exist in realms of eternal dark. Took many flowers more, just never felt right, But in sorrow and pain, comes dark before light, If only I had known, you would always be in sight, If only you had known of my plight.....

  Through the cracks of circumstance, Our love has begun seeping. You fault me, leaving without a glance, In this vat of guilt I'm weeping. They look to me from afar, And see my eyes gleaming, The tears sparkle in the daylight, No sound and yet I'm screaming. Woke up outside, twas no more morn, Eyes lost in the dark, feeling forlorn, I must condone, I must move on, I still have the stars, I'm not alone.

    The man you loved, may have been a knave, but my love was all I had, my love was all I gave. In life, I feared more than death, standing alive at your grave, I take no breath free of the thought, Of the path we could have paved They say distance brings men closer, All you did was drift further away, Why I let you out of my sight, I do not know, nor would I ever say.  The man you loved, may have been a knave, but my love was all I had, my love was all I gave.

 As I sit here, holding this pen, my hands remain still, sheathing my flawed inner workings plagued by utter chaos and emptiness. I will forever cherish these moments we spent together even as they pull me further apart from myself. As the sun falls further and further sweeping the skies with its awestruck crimson hue, the colors dancing beyond the dim horizon, all I wish for is to be in your arms. Our love was not given up on, the lord knows we tried. It blazed all else with its brightness, and slowly faded away, till it was no more. The sun that has risen is the sun that must set. Will it rise again? Perhaps, but we may never know. What I do know is that as the evening wastes away and the day dims further, a million stars gleam across the sky, and all I hope for is to see them through your eyes.  There's no light without dark, no joy without pain. To enjoy the sunshine, you must go through the rain.

  The world kept going on, As I was locked up in a hole. The sound of her calm voice, Stuck in my ear mole. Wasted away at a pole, Pulled apart from my sole, As I lay miles apart from my love, The one who filled my soul. Young love strays from reality, The heat of life's unrefined coal. The hoax of happy endings, Were nothing but a dole. Dreams of our future together, Nothing but a delusional goal, Miles apart from my love, The one who made me whole.

My heart is shattered, my soul is torn, As I stand here, feeling forlorn. The love we shared, now just a memory, A beautiful dream, now a tragic story. I see your face, in every crowd, But you're not there, you're not around. I hear your voice, in every sound, But it's just an echo, that's never found. I remember the way you used to touch my hair, The way you whispered, that you'd always be there. But now the silence, is all I hear, And the emptiness, is all I fear. I cry at night, with no one to hold, I reach out for you, but you're not there to hold. I search for you, in every soul, But you're not there, you're gone, you're gone. My heart is broken, my soul is torn, As I stand here, feeling forlorn. But I will heal, I will move on, And find new love, when the time is dawn.

                                                       Intimate, a word so fair and sweet, A feeling that doth make the heart complete. A connection deep and true, A bond that's formed betwixt me and you. It's more than just a physical touch, It's a feeling that doth mean so much. It's a look, a smile, a whispered word, A feeling that doth not be blurred. It's a trust that's built with time and care, A love that doth the soul ensnare. It's a feeling that's hard to define, But it's one that doth forever be mine. It's a comfort in the darkest hours, A light that guides us through life's showers. It's a feeling that we both doth share, A love that's always there. Intimate, a word so pure and true, A feeling that will forever be new. It's a connection that words cannot express, A bond that's felt deep within the heart's recess.

  Lost among the skeptics of this high society, Where the snakes and the intimates look the same, Unable to keep apart friend and foe, In a leap of trust turning to only one face. It drains my soul, burns ardour to ash, Seeing the giver of my life, falling ever so apart. In the ranks of devotion, the lord stands woefully, Next to the true elixir of life, the vitalizer, the mother. When this fragile vessel can hold the soul no more, And the beings of this world must dissipate, The one who cradled me in her faithful breast, Her life untowardly becomes ever so delicate. When the sound resonation of her heart, Comes to an everlasting, melancholic end, The final breath the only abstract closure, In a life led incomplete, of an angel at heart. A tap on my shoulder, an earnest face looking up, Unbeknownst to the tragedy, asking for her mother I remain null in the anguish, reflecting to myself O lord, I cannot comprehend this crooked "fairness". Plunged into the darkness of oblivion,...

                                                                                                   Held up in the chamber of my faults, Covered in the blinding smoke of my conceit, Unable to look far beyond, to see, the light of the horizon dimming away Engulfed in the hope of a perfect queen, The serendipity of true love was all but lost for me. The one among thousands of thousands, Purloined by a lesser right in front of my eyes Scars running deep from the knife that bled out, The path of destiny carved out for me Torn apart from one another by unbeknownst forces, Our love never strong enough to shield the storm Locked in my kingdom of isolation, I only hope for her return, the one who made me complete But the heart that hopes is the heart...